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    Wednesday, 19 September 2007

    Story of Love.

    Tulips. lovely tulips.

    Hms. tulips.

    There's this sentence that i really like.
    [ Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay]

    If you found someone you love, DON'T act as if it is something you don't care.
    Love is a war in the heart. And a war best not to be lost.
    If someone caught your eye, Confess. Do it before you lost the chance.

    - A very long love story -


    The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start
    to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.

    I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl who I love a lot but
    never dare go after. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good
    figure, and doesn’t have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like
    her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like
    her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt
    somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.

    I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm
    also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be
    mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason,
    made her accompany me for 3 years.

    She watched me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
    She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I
    kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile &
    say "Go on!" before running off.

    The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to
    think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When
    everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't
    know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for
    an hour or so.

    My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I
    know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the
    quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were
    filled with shock. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my
    girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever
    happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is
    as bad as hers.

    When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a
    day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally,
    she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me
    about her getting together. I know who's the guy. He has been going after her
    for quite a while.

    A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been
    the talk of the school. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile &
    congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't
    stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breathe.
    Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down I broke down & cry. How many
    times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too?

    During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was sent 10 days ago when I broke
    down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because
    of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"


    During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I feel that, for a leaf to
    leave the tree she has been relying on for so long takes a lot of courage.
    During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind
    but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never
    should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by
    using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit.

    They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong
    sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal. I like
    him & I know he likes me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why
    doesn't he want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my
    heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt.

    I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like me, why does he
    treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a
    person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings
    towards me.. I can never figure out. You can't expect me, a girl, to ask him right?
    Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love
    him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come and love me. It's like waiting for his
    phone call every night, wanting him to sms me. I know that no matter
    how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him.

    The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up.
    Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma
    accompanied me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
    starts to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright
    rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small
    footing in my heart. He's like a warm, gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away
    from the tree.

    In the end, I realized that I didn't want to only give this wind a small footing in my
    heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away to a better
    land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay.


    I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree that I have to
    be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1
    month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my
    seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.
    Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals, there's
    jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking
    at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

    One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling
    except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to
    their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

    Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place,
    looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her.
    She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepted the note.

    The next day, she appeared & passed me a note and left. "Leaf's heart is too
    heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

    "It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It's because leaf never want to leave tree."
    I replied her note with this statement and slowly, she started to talk to me and
    accept my presents & phone calls.

    I know that the person she love is not me. But I have this perseverance that
    one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for
    her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I
    never gave up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to
    win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
    Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping
    that she will agree to me my girlfriend.

    Few days before her graduation day, I called her as usual. Bearing my small ray
    of hope, I asked whether she would agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear
    any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you
    didn't want to reply?". She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I
    couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up
    the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place and pressed her
    door bell.

    During the moment when she opened the door. I hugged her tightly.

    [Leaf departure is because of
    Wind pursuit. Or because Tree
    didn't ask her to stay.]


    I felt that this is a piece of very special essay.

    A very special story too.

    I read it when i'm Secondary 3.

    How do you feel after reading?


    Confess to the one you love before you lose him/her.


    Lol. I can't believe i'm asking people to confess when ME MYSELF will not confess to
    the person i like.

    Losing them seems to be my habit already.

    But it takes too much for me to confess.
    It really takes alot for a girl to confess.


    Ahhh Ahdadada ~

    The story is actually in Chinese. But i believe an English version would be better in my blog.

    Hope you all enjoyed.


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