Yes yes. I'm going to tell you all 10 points why i suck in band.
1. I cannot get in tune. 2. I am not allowed to use tuner during practice. (save battery uh) ( i swear i'm going to buy my own batteries) 3. I think it's Quite hard to tune to 9 flautists. ( i suck) 4. I cannot understand conducting. (serious, i just don't understand.) 5. I can't count quarter rests. ( 1 n 2 n 3 n 4? , 1 nn 2nn 3nn 4n play?) 6. I play very soft. 7. I don't have enough air support. 8. I feel stress sitting beside Shirley. 9. I feel stress sitting beside Vanessa. 10. When i put my stand at my perfect reading height, i can't see Cpt Yusri, i get scolded ; When i put my stand at a lower reading height, i can see Cpt Yusri, I slouch to read, i get scolded.
Ok. Now, 1 main point why i am still in band although i suck.
1. I leave, he happy. Conclusion : I won't leave. Unless i have better reason than preventing him to be happy. =))