" alright, i'm fine already. "


Woots ~

Congrats to RPWS' new committee ! Committee 07`08 ~ !!

I'm SO SO SO looking forward to next year's band camp !!

Hm. Before that, i should be looking forward to this end of year's Taiwan trip ya !

Yups. RPWS is going TAIWAN for music exchange !
STRAIGHT AFTER Christmas. BEST RIGHT?!

I got the SUDDEN 'thank god' feeling.

I suddenly feel so happy that i'm not QM.
Imagine you have to in charge of the moving of instruments to Taiwan..

JUST imagine.. Moving to the lorry.. Moving it to Changi Airport..
Sending it over to taiwan.. Making sure everything is in perfect condition..
Taking care of everyone's instrument.. Sending it back to Singapore..

AND.. stock-take? Must right ? must make sure all instruments are back?

HAHAHA ! Imagine ! Super tired can !

Lucky man. ^^

Ahhs.

Hehehehe ~


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Ahhs. I'm like dying in school already..

Imagine. 30 days of school, 10 days absent.. 15 days late (late as in miss 1st meeting).

BAD RIGHT. HAHA.

Totally cannot make it.. grades gone, all gone.

LOST SO MUCH CAN.

Alright la. i'll be fine. NExt week holiday. I'm so totally going to enjoy it. ^^

Nights all.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

" and when i decided to leave my chocolate bar on the table for
someone else, my sweet got stolen and i'm then left with a packet of salt. "

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

" and they always say, follow your heart. "

In a " do you want more? " question..

My heart said YES. and No.

In enterprise lessons, we are always asked to "grab the opportunity" and most of the time " follow your heart ".

well. Sigh.

When i say yes, i feel greedy. like i'm already given a packet of sweets and when i saw the kid beside me being offered a packet of chocolate. I want the sweets, and the chocolates too.

All the other kids are telling me that the chocolate taste better than the sweet.
And because of that, i feel that i will want to take the chocolate from the kid beside me.

Yes, and of course, the kid beside me will be my best friend. And my best friend will of course let me have the chocolate.

I will then give my best friend the packet of sweets i have. But we all know that the chocolate taste better than the sweet.

So are you being a good friend ? Being so selfish ?


But when i say no, i lose the opportunity.

both the sweets and chocolates are offered to me and my friend at the same point of time.
If i were to grab the opportunity and say i want the chocolates before my best friend, it will be a different case already.

Because your friend hadn't receive the chocolate yet, and you're not TAKING IT AWAY from him/her. True?

I'm hesitating. Hesitating to decide whether Yes or No will be a better answer.

Sometimes it is hard to decide what's or who is more important.

You, yourself or your friend, best friend.

-

My heart is too tired to think..

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

I am Sick.

Yes. Sick. Again.

I was sick. I recovered for 1 day.
And i'm sick again now.

This time worst than the last.

Tomorrow is the Youth Park Performance for RPWS.

I'm trying to get well by tonight, which is highly unlikely.

But i'm trying.

Look at the amount of Panadol i took since yesterday night.



I doubt my cough and flu will be off by tomorrow.
But it must at least get a little better before i can convince my mother to allow me to go out?

Yes. I'm have to pretend i'm fine by standing still 5 mins without coughing and sneezing to pass her 'you-can-go-out-now' test.

Tomorrow will be a very very tiring day. REally. Today is already half as tiring.

-

Every now and then, every moment..
Everytime i sit down alone and start to think, i found out so many more things.

So many things i don't even know how to start blogging about them.

And with my condition now, i doubt i can enjoy posting. I CAN, but not as much.

I am really worried now.
My internet connection is so terrible now. I don't know how am i going to complete the RPWS - Arts Festival blog.

I need 1.39 min to load a page.
And i can only open one browser, if not my laptop will hang.

Very pathetic ya ?

Quite.

My laptop is as sick as me. I understand how it feel.

Sick but not allowed to rest. Because there's so many things to do.

And someone do remind me to buy strepsils tomorrow. =((

That is IF i'm better tonight, i will be going for the performance and i will need strepsils.

Good Luck to us ya.

Do drink loads of water , take good care of health.

TErrible weather, Terrible Flu.

*Waves*

will be better tomorrow =))

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Love is in suspense.

When you like someone, you will feel the dancing butterflies in your stomach when you see him/her.
You will feel your heart beating so fast when he/she look at you.
You will wonder whether he/she feel the same for you too.

But when you lose all the feelings above, does that mean you don't like the person anymore?

And how do you tell if you're ready to fall out of love?


--
Chills chills.

It seems that every wednesday the amount of people viewing my blog will the highest of the week.

Haha. ahhs. 24 hrs /day is really going to tear my soul apart.
TOO SHORT.
I need to sleep 20 hrs per day and with that, i'm always left with NO TIME.

No time to do this and that. sigh.

Life shall be better tomorrow.

Nights.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Seen me?

saw my eyes ?

eyes bags are building up..

haven't got any sleep lately.

Quite disappointed with myself for not finishing my workload on time.

Life is terrible.

No time for my long winded posts.

Will make time for them.

somewhere under the stars, i know someone is having the same heavy heart as me.

Ciao.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Once again, I'm undefeatable !

Haha. I feel so satisfied with myself.

I washed both my parent's cars today.
Really tiring.

Before you wash the car, you will be like..

: Wash car only what. what's the big deal?

HAha. Seriously.. You must try doing it and you will feel what's the big deal about washing car.
Totally can burn fats la.

If i continue to wash their car everyday, i will sure lose weight. LOL !
Lucky my brother and his friends are out. If not, i must wash his car too.

Hahaha. Really nice, So satisfised =))

Ahh. My house is almost finished renovating.
Now working on the last few parts only;
My dad is making a fountain. Yea. By himself.
The water is flowing already, he's trying to make smoke come out from the bloody fountain.
Haha. Damn toot.

The workers are working on the grass patch and the vege garden.
Grass patch is alright. Vege garden?
HAha. Yups. My mother keeps a vege garden by herself. It's actually half vege and half fruits.

I'm not sure what she's going to grow this time. Last time was..

chilli padi, kang kong, herb, cucumber and i think.. sweet potato?

Fruits, we have sugar cane, papaya and.. mango? I'm not sure.

Haha.

There's 8 houses in my street.
They are facing each other, so it's 4 , 4 .

__3____ ___4____

___1___ ___2____

Can imagine? mine is the 4th.
We are all very competitive neighbours.

When one changes a car, the other will do the same. and all..

number 3 and number 4 stayed there longest.
number 2 moved in 3 years ago.
And number 1 just moved in 1 year ago or so.

When number 1 moved in, they re-built the whole house.
Making it look like a Giant's house. Super kiasu la.
Their main gate is like.. SO BIG. and their NUMBER 1 Tag is like SUPER BIG too.
(I'll show you when my house is done. i'll show all the houses)

And cos of that, number 2 went to renovate their garden too.

After few months, which is few months ago, my dad decided to renovate our house too.
The reason is actually vERY VERY simple.

My brother room's ceiling is falling.
And his door officially broke down.
the cause of it breaking down is actually him and my sister.

Few years ago they fought. And they pratically tore the door into half. TORE. YEs.
Both pulling at opposite sides .

Ok. And so. my dad say, since we are renovating, we might as well do it once and for all.
Hahaha. And ta da. We renovated EVERYTHING. My room became 2 in 1.
My room and the music room is combined together.

The side balcony became a music room.
All tiles are changed.

All toilets are FULLY renovated. LIKE HOTEL LA. Honest ! No booasting.
Hahah. Shall show next time.

Then.. Yea. POrch and all. super cool . Maybe minus my dad's fountain.
I'm not really fond of the fountain. it looked weird. well . it's not mine. who cares. HAHA.

Ahh. and my mum installed a spotlight above the porch JUST LIKE Number 3's house.

Just that our spotlight is sharper.

LOL.

Super funny la. When i saw the spotlight.. i'm like..

" WHAT THE HELL. MUMMY. U PURPOSELY ONE AH ? "
And all gave me innocent looks. =/

Okok. Today was really nice . No one disturb me. No one argue with me. Haha.

And my brother's friends are once again, nice.

They taught me a new card game call Bridge. Super cool la.
And yea, we played mahjong whole night. (yesterday)

I did try to start on the rpws blog, got the informations i need. Just need a little more understand of codes before i totally begin.

it's not easy u know. Haha.

Ahh. Oh. Today my piano teacher ask me to choose a piece that i would like to learn.
I randomly picked <>> (Long version) by Jay Chou.
And she said it will be the piece i'm performing at her concert.

Haha. Was abit shocked at first, but it was alright. I guess it should be .

So, yups. Busy few months ahead. Her concert is coming up around next month or december.
will be looking at the piece next week. =))

Life is definetly better. Thanks to all who wished me well. =)

On Julia Quinn's 7th book now. - It's in His Kiss.

Have fun all. ^^

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

I see I see.

People always say " i see i see ".

I believe it is one way to say that they understand.
It's not really that they see it.

i think it should be " i know i know ".

But somehow it sounds wrong too.
people understand doesn't mean they know.

It's alright.

But this time. I really see.

I had mistaken someone's care and concern for something more.

And now i see.
I understand.
I know.

I see from what the person had written. I understand the real feelings and now i know what i should do.

Move on =)

haha. i'm so calm.

Yea. sometimes after experiencing so much things, it's easier to accept things that come dropping on you.

Maybe even when the sky fall, you will be able to smile at it.

Smile at how world end. Smile at how things are decided.

=)) Smile for everything.

I am a very optimistic person. Very.

Oh ya.

I just know that i am a very undecisive person.

I was thrown a yes/no question few days back.
It took me 2 days and loads of thinking before answering.

And finally i made the decision.
Which is SO SLOW LA.

Hahah. but well. I still decided. WHich means, i'm someone who CAN decide on things.
Just someone who need more time to decide on things.

Haha.

Okok.

Lastly.
Thanks to all who made a poll on the polling program.

The polling had ended Just now. at 11.59pm.

The RPWS scandal post had won the poll !
defeated The unglam photos by 1 vote.

it actually wasn't much of a surprise.
The numbers stayed there like for... 1 week already.

LOL. not bad u see. 30 unique visitors. Haha .

Okok. Thanks alot ya people !

I shall be starting on the post when i finish making the new blog for rpws - arts festival on the 8th december.

And THAT shall take me quite long. Will update again soon.

Stay tuned ya people !!

Good Night !

Labels: random-ness

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Hah. After doing things that you think was the best for your friend and then was told that is actually the worst for your friend isn't bad enough for you to cry till your eyes are both swollen.

I know what is.

Shouting back at your father after you got home by taxi with 3 other guys you don’t know. They took the taxi with you because the taxi driver is trying to make more moneyby sending more people home at the same time.

Your reason for shouting at your father is because he bought you a phone that ring so softly that he had to give you 9 missed call in 6 minutes and you only pick up the 10th call. And he scolded you because you took the call 6 minutes after he started calling.

Then he left you alone at the shopping complex telling you that he will not fetch you home and you have to go home by yourself. And so you called your brother to fetch you.Your brother scolded you like your father because he thinks it’s your fault that you didn’t hear the bloody phone ring. Although your brother then promised that he will pick you up from the customs, he didn’t. And with that, you have to take the bloody Malaysia cab home by yourself. With 3 other guys that you don’t know. + the taxi driver. 4 guys.

And when you got home, your mother tell you that your father is super angry with you and all the fucking stuffs, you still have to greet her and say I’m home. After greeting her, you wanted to storm to your room and just sleep all the way through till tomorrow morning hoping your flu will be gone then and your father started to scold you again.

So you shouted back. And you got slapped.

Yes. directly at your left cheek.

Even the most optimistic person on earth cannot take it.
EVEN ME. THE PERSON WITH THE MOTTO AS EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE CANNOT TAKE IT. BECAUSE FUCK IT, NOT EVEYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

GETTING SLAP BY YOUR FATHER AND STILL SMILE. HOW WILL IT EVER BE POSSIBLE?

KNOWING YOU DISAPPOINTED ONE OF YOUR MOST TREASURED FRIEND AND STILL SMILE AT HER TOMORROW. NOT POSSIBLE.

TRYING TO MAKE SURE YOU STILL GO FOR LESSON AND BAND PRACTICE WITH A HAPPY FACE AND DOING YOUR BEST IS NOT POSSIBLE TOO.

FUCK IT. FUCK LIFE.

I HAVE NEVER HATED MYSELF. AND TODAY, I HATE MYSELF.
AND EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE TO MAKE ME HATE MYSELF.

be far away from me. I'm a sucker with no brains. and the last thing i will do is to care for my friends and family.

And for the first time in my life, i found out that, apologising is painful.

because aplogies can be rejected.

most painfully, by friends.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

It's the weather. Really.

Sunny Rainy Sunny Rainy.

I'm like SO sick right now can.

Always at night, all the symptoms will come.

- Running nose
- Watery eyes
- Coughing
- Sore Throat

Blah blah blah . irritating . Irritated.

Yea. and bloody wisdom tooth is uber painful.

Drink more water kaes people !

Don't fall sick . Really. Don't.

Can't take it anymore. Don't have the energy to type my whole days' event out.

Shall just end here.

Good Nights. Will post again when i'm better.

ahhh. Currently the Votes between Scandals and Unglam is 14 - 14.

Tie. Junhao recommend that i combine the 2 posts.

True. the recommendation is quite tempting. But if everyone agrees..

I'll say, the photos will only be 50% and 50% of the 2 event's folder.

Will that be good? Hmms. ^^

Nights !

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Happy 17th Birthday Rachael !

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

I FEEL SO RIDICULOUS.

Grr.

Selamat Hari Raya. Selamat Hari Raya. Selamat Hari Raya.

I have been wishing alot of my muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya + Happy New Year.

AND I DIDN'T KNOW THEY DON'T LINK !

Selamat Hari Raya DOES NOT EQUAL TO Happy New Year.

I'm so so so so so embarassed la.

I have been like wishing so many muslim friends happy new year and then NO ONE told me i'm wrong. felt so urgh.

Ok, it's not them to be blamed. Just my not-understanding-something-before-saying mind again.

I had wondered about The words Hari Raya for many years, but never asked anyone.
Because i remember learning in Kindergarden that Hari is day/s and Tahun or something is Years.

It doesn't really make sense that i wish someone "day" when i mean "year" u see?

But i never asked =/

Until today, i just anyhow-ly asked my classmate.
They just told me that Hari Raya is mostly just celebrating the end of fasting.

Not New year.

Razali(my old old classmate) told me that he think Hari Raya Haji should be the "new year" i'm referring to.

Well well. argh.

I'm really sorry for the mis-wishing ya.

REally ~

^^

Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends and their families ~

-

Oh ya. My left wisdom tooth had stopped growing. (no more pain)
I think i found out that, the tooth will grow, stop, grow, stop and grow.

Anytime they like.

Like today. My right jaw starts to hurt again.
I actually thought it's because i bite my food too hard and all.

ahh. I just found out just now when i'm brushing my teeths that,
AHH . My Right wisdom tooth is continuing to grow.

Haha. I'll have to endure the pain. grr. Again.

Quite irritated too. But i read about wisdom tooth just now.
Share it with u guys ya.

What are wisdom teeth?

Wisdom teeth are the upper and lower third molars, located at the very back of the mouth. They are called wisdom teeth because usually they come in when a person is between 17 and 21 years or older—old enough to have gained some "wisdom." Wisdom teeth that are healthy and properly positioned do not cause problems.

Sentence in red DOES make sense. ^^

Sentence in blue seems to NOT make that much sense.

Ok. it does make sense, so it's trying to say that my wisdom tooth are not healthy and not properly positioned so it caused problems.

Yea. Most likely that way.

Alot of causes, you can read it if you're interested.

http://www.peacehealth.org/kbase/topic/mini/hw172025/overview.htm

There are also symptoms.

Wisdom teeth often cause no symptoms. Symptoms that may mean your wisdom teeth need to be removed include:

Pain or jaw stiffness near an impacted tooth.

Pain or irritation from a tooth coming in at an awkward angle and rubbing against your cheek, tongue, or top or bottom of the mouth.

An infected swelling in the flap of gum tissue that has formed on top of an impacted tooth that has partially broken through the gum.

Crowding of other teeth.

Tooth decay or gum disease if there's not enough room to properly care for the wisdom tooth and surrounding teeth.

- Most problems with wisdom teeth develop in people between the ages of 15 and 25. Few people older than 30 develop problems that require removal of their wisdom teeth.

Ers. Why am i sharing all these ? I REALLY have no idea. But i think they are Quite useful to some extent =/

Do read about it.
Argh.

Tomorow shall be a tired day. very tired day.

Good night all !

Oh ya. I'm having a terrible sore throat. =(
And i'm staying alone for 3 days.

so much for independent lifestyle.

Treasure your time staying with your parents ok.
Because, it's always better to have someone look after you than you looking after yourself.

Like now, i wish my mum is by my side, tendering my throat and cooling my fever.
Stay healthy everyone !

Drink loads of water ! Don't fall sick !

Nights.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

ANOTHER BAD MIGRAINE NIGHT.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Bad Migraine.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Today was nice.

Went off to partyworld with Weiwei and Shirley at 12pm.
Reason : (i will POST it up for u all to see next time. bloody faci)

Went for band after that.

Was almost half dead.

The only thing that really interest me is Aizat's tenor saxophone.
There's 3 weird keys. Really weird. I forgot to ask him how he press it.

I'll ask him during next band practice. If you are interested in which keys am i referring to, be present when i ask him ya. =/

ahh.

Then went to BK with the girls.
talked.

Ah yes.. My internet connection is still not fixed yet.
Currently still stealing wireless from my neighbour.

Ok. Nothing much.. Really.

Just a random thing if you all want to know about what i found out these 2 days is that..

The moon is smaller than Earth and Shooting stars are made of debris, dust and pebbles.

=)

Yes. I'm still on my Astrology book. Now on page 148. Super nice. But also super hard to understand. er..

Did i mention i love to read about outer space and all ?
HAha. YEs. I love to read about outer space; stars, moon, sun, planet, debris.. etc etc

SUPER cool la. Totally =/

Ok. I'm tired. Ok ok . ok ..

Nights.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Attention Please !

A question for Rpws members ya.

The question will be at the Left side of the blog screen.

Under the category of " Qi Asks "

Ok. Do give me your opinions. =)

ahs. No worries, the poll is SUPER CONFIDENTIAL.
Bloody toot. Cos even the creator cannot see who voted.

Pass this message around. Everyone join in for the poll =)


[ The voting counter will end on the 20th October 2007 at 23:59 ]
- Vote for your entertainment !

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

I say : Smile when you are tired. =)

Anyone missed me? Hahaha. If you realize, I haven’t been online for almost 3 days.
LOL ! Never mind =/

Let me do some updating. Hms.
I didn’t go school on Friday. Reason being : I think I’m not well.


I’m perfectly well. Healthy Healthy.
But I think I will not be well if I go school. So I didn’t went.

It seems that, I have no motivation to go school anymore.
Considering my attendance used to be super good, I don’t know what is happening to me.
Perhaps too tired to entertain.

I’m worried about my CE points. =/
I still haven’t go for any talk.
It’s like.. I’m planning to go so many talks.
Always asked people along. But Always rejected last minute.
And for that, I didn’t go for the talk too.

I hate walking in the school alone. Outside is fine, but not in the school.
It’s like so pathetic. To me. Yes.
Sigh. So.. I am worried, very worried about my CE points.

There's this 'tension' thingy in my class.
How do i say this..
There's this Quite good looking guy in my class.

And if you must know, He's a Malay guy.
All the other races girls are, too, attracted to him.
Why and How? No idea.

So, during his turn for presentation, all the girls will give the fullest attention to his group and all.
Then the funny thing is..

All the girls will just stare at him. I find it super cool because it's like almost all the girls looking at him, yet the girls don't see each other doing the same thing. er.. u understand?

Because i'm almost always late for class (reason being: i always forget to wake up)
Because of that, i'm always in the middle group. So it's really obvious when everyone look in the middle. Er. Ok.. another example is..
There's this one time i group with the guy, during presentation, i can feel ALL eyes on me.
Well. Not on me, On him, He's beside me.

It's super uneasy la.
Haha. Seriously, i do look at the guy too. He's very nice.. in a lot of ways.
But he's really old. Er. He's the same age as my brother.
IF you know how old is my brother, you'll understand.

And.. why am i talking about this guy? zz.
Side tracked i believe.

Ok. Back to my Friday..

Friday is sleeping day. Because I make myself sleep till 3.30pm that day.

When I woke up, Naf and Rachael called. Asked me to join them for dinner.
I wish I could. But I have no choice.

My dad is angry with me for not calling home for 2 days and offing my phone so he cannot call.

So I have to go home. Yea.

Saturday. Meixian asked whether I want to join them for shopping.

I wish I could again. But sigh. Nevermind..
I just wish I can get my license soon. So I can don’t depend on people who don’t allow me to go out to drive me around. Yes.

And license. I think I will be getting my theory lesson in 1 months’ time.
After Hari Raya.

And then, Saturday is boring.
Because my modem is spoilt and I can't online.
I tried to fix it the whole Friday night, but nothing helped.

I called the bloody tmnet customer service technician.
And he told me in this stupid slang that, “ ahh. I’m afraid we can’t help. It’s not the problem over here.”
OK SORRY, NOT STUPID SLANG. INDIAN SLANG. =/ no offence.

Just hope he can feel me roll my eyes at that. Ok.

Back to my Satuday.
No internet connection. Bored.

But I did quite a lot of things. well, that will be..

1. I watched Ratatouille
2. I practiced my flute
3. I practiced my piano
4. I updated new songs to my mp4
5. I finish my Julia Quinn’s book 6 (now on 7)
6. I ate sweets
7. I held my lappie and walked my whole house to find free wireless
8. I played pillow fight with Tigger. (My sis is overseas AGAIN, with her ladyboss, I have no choice but to play with her Tigger.) ( It’s actually just me throwing pillows at Tigger =/ )
9. I stared at the ceiling.
10. I stared at my fan.

considering that fact that, I will just sit in front of my com to do create nonsense and scandals with my internet connection, doing all THAT is an improvement for a healthy day.

Oh. Yea. With the stupid no internet connection problem, I can’t download Adobe Photoshop to edit the beautiful pictures I have for blogging.

But, Thanks to Naf.. I have Picasa. A basic software to edit the basic stuff.

It’s really the basic. But well, it does help.

And that’s all I’m doing for the pictures I’m going to blog, Basic touches.
Really a boring Saturday. But really, Thanks for all the nonsense I did, it Past.

Sunday today. Went for piano lesson this morning.

Once again stressed by my teacher, telling me that I have to give her an answer whether or not I’m taking my theory test.
HAHA.

I may have Grade 6 Practical cert. But I’m only a Grade 2 at theory.
I hate memorizing things. Hate learning things that need to be written down.
Hate guessing the notes.

And so, Ta Da. Grade 2 only.
Teacher insisted that I take more theory test, because I will need it when I take my other practical exams. Hm. I told her I’ll consider. xD

And, time for considering that problem..
I’ll leave it to .. Next month. After Hari Raya. Why?
No why. Just for fun

ah. I'm not in a very comfortable right now. My lappy is at the edge of my bed, i have to use one hand to hold it, and use the other one to type and surf net.

Grr. Because This is the only position i can get wireless connection from my neighbour.

Ahh. I'm really going to complain. I'm paying 88 dollars per month for my wireless connection and yet i have to use it in such a stealing-pathetic position.

HAhaha.

Ok, this is really pathetic. Yes. 2 days ago, Yesterday and Today, now.

Tomorrow shall be better. =)

I'm really good at complaining. Cool. Nagging too.

Heh. I think i should return to my Book.
Yes. I'm reading my favourite book right now. Not Julia Quinns'.
zz.

Ok.. Shall be back soon. yea. soon. I have loads to post about.

About my research about a very beautiful place and.. a little research of you, him, her, them.

roll eyes.

Ah. Ok. I'll be back soon.

Chills.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

I found out that..

it is hard to depend on people.

The thing is, people don't care about what you need.
They don't want to know what you need.
They don't care.

THAT is sucky.

Because i'm so disappointed.

So now, i decided that i will do it myself.
Whatever fuck it is, i will do it myself.

Do FEEL how angry i am. I AM VERY ANGRY.
yes. very. burning fiercely. aNGRY

With this person who think i will be there when he need me but will never be there for me when i need him. BEcause this bloody person is a fucking idiot. A fucking idiot who only think for himself and no one else.

Fuck off, get out of my life.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Secret.

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Do insert password to view post.

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sigh..


I have decided that..

Waiting is an option. Starting now. Today. Now.

Waiting is an option.

2nd October 2007.
This is the first time in this year feeling so stressed up.
I have so many things yet to be done and so many things waiting to be done.

I wish that you will _ _ _ _- _ _ _ _- _ _- _ _ _ -_ _ _ _ -_ _ .
With that, i feel that time will stop for me. My anxiety will be gone for the moment.
For you, for me.
sigh.

My message to you. ( If only you know it is you )

Everytime we get closer, we became furthur apart.
Please tell me are you a Protector or are you a Pursuer.
Before i say waiting is not an option anymore.
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Don't have to wish me well or tell me not to be so stress.
It will not work.

Sorry ya. I'm just feeling so stressed up and fcuked up.

Life like that.

painful

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;

Happy Childrens' Day !

quite depressing.
Primary school celebrates Childrens' Day.
Secondary school celebrates Youth Day.
Poly celebrates LABOUR DAY.

AND LABOUR DAY is OVER..

there goes another public holiday. Sigh.

Anyways. Today is pathetic.
well. not TODAY. just Science.
Science is pathetic.

It's EASY la. I just don't get it.
I get it. It's just.. more than what i can understand.

Whatever it is..
I did badly. VERY BAD.
very very bad.

I'm going to blame the problem at my toothache again.
It's the best way afterall.

Ok.

Something is wrong is my phone and lappie. The bluetooth is not working.
Must be my toothache, it caused all the tooths to spoil too.

Ok. so.. cos of that, i cannot transfer my pictures to the com.
And so, cannot show you all the pictures.

I'm missing this imaginary guy.
And cos of that, i dun have the urge to blog good stuff.

So.. bye bye ppl.

Nights.

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too... ;